Lovingmarine94

My mom ungrounded me early and i am finnaly aloud to write and draw all i want. she's off to goliad again so i won't see her till monday night. whish me luck cause i get to go get my dress remaide on tusesday so i'm going to have a blast. love yall and it's greeat to be back on da.

Yall im scard. Its like i'm not myself anymore. I have no control over my mind anymore. it's like all i want to do is die. I found myself thinking what it would be like to pull the trigger. this isn't how i am. I shouldn't feel this way. i just feel so alone and gone. i starting to wonder if god is even there. everything around me is falling apart. my writing is gone and i can't draw anything. What i did manage to draw was so horrid i couldn't post it. i feel like there's nothing left of me. i don't know what to do. i keep telling myself i can't die, Mattie needs me. I can't die, mom needs me. i can't die my freinds need me. but the truth is